User blog:BangJang96/Temporal Inactivity

Hey all,

As of now, I feel as if I am falling into a not-so-deep, but still depression. Its not that high school is overwhelming, but this is Strike Three for me. Rejected by a girl for the third time. My friend hasn't texted me since Thursday because I told her I liked her. Its not that I'm butthurt that no one likes me, its just that I feel like everyone I like is either against me, manipulative, or just pretends I don't exist the moment I state how I feel. And honestly, I just feel like a failure. I get exposed every time I spill the beans, and I'm a laughing stock. Today I was reminded of how bad my past was as well, and its not fun to have that crawling up your back when you know the things you do are bad.

And its not just outside of the wiki. Honestly, I feel like I've been screwing up lately here as well. I got really pissed at Ari on chat recently because I disagreed with him, I've been very snippy with Gmea on the Discord, and I just feel like I'm just not making the right choices, and I've just been reckless. Numerous times throughout summer and spring, I'd always find myself being corrected by someone Not to mention how much I dissed VS Battles to the point where I made chat an all-you-can-rant buffet. All I've been doing is giving negative vibes.

And the last time I was depressed on chat, I started talking to myself about how much I wanna hurt my sister and screw up her life because she stepped on my foot with a high heel. Whenever I'm in a bad mood, the chat has to put up with it, and I can't let the chat do that anymore.

Will I be leaving this wiki? Heck no.

Will I be inactive for at least two or three months? Yes.

Am I pissed off or mad at someone at the moment? No names will be mentioned, but yes.

Will I still write fights? Yes.

Will I be on the Discord? More often, probably.

Can you contact me on DeviantArt and Steam? Yes you can.

This isn't goodbye. I just need to take some time to myself to change.

Bang out.