Thread:5555thExplosionMage/@comment-27176073-20161008055501/@comment-5007477-20161008063834

Finally my lag fest ended so I can begin typing. That was like what? 30 minutes? Anyway, I completely forgot what I read because of me constantly waiting so lemme reread.

... Okais!

First off with the ego, I haven't been showing it THAT often I think... Have I? And to be honest I do accept how strong Megumin is and I know for a fact she has no chance against Kyoko. I honestly don't understand the connections between the two tho but that's just me. As for the idea of Megumin soloing via explosions, I have never made a joke like that. Well at least my memory tells me. The one who has made jokes like that was Para in which I just roll with.

Yeah the weeaboo comments have been getting on my nerves and have been driving me insane. All I want is a place where I am safe from being made fun of for liking anime since I have to deal with being made fun out of for it like 6 days a week for a full 7 hours. But yeah I have been kind of a coward, I'm just not the kind of person to really... be savage or come out on things that hurt me. I dunno it's just how I am.

I do take roleplaying too far. I think I'm just used to writing long paragraphs for roleplaying, I guess that's why they turn out so long. I have an unquenchable thirst for roleplaying but my mind needs a specific setting in order to even have a sip which is a) having a lot of people around. And b) have a character I am actually interested in. The Chatzy really doesn't carry either for me so I can't really RP in there and keep an interest.

As for gender it was common knowledge at this point. However, I would honestly just staying with my gender being anonymous if Dio didn't expose leaving you guys with the solace that there was someone who was female on there. Also the whole story behind me acting like a girl would take me a long time but if you want an explanation I'd be happy to write a good long thingamajig about it.

Changing myself is rather difficult. My old pattern worked so well and now that it is deteriorating my mind is doing flips as we speak. It wants to get back on it's feet but it has no idea how it can. I'm a situation where I am stuck my old mindset is what my brain thought it needed and threw out everything else. The process will take a REALLY long time to make myself more tolerable.

I'm not taking this as an attack and more or less something I know I need. A good ol' slap in the face telling me to wake up, Of course I'm still groggy but that doesn't matter the point is I am in an area where I can start realising and show who I truly am.

As for treating with respect, I'm doing my best to try. Fairy Tail hasn't really caught my attention in the many attempts I've given it and Naruto's premis is just... blech. One Piece is something I won't even try bothering with due to it's length that'll just result in my death. Those are really the only anime I've been angry about directly that people know about,

Gnight buddy.