User blog:BangJang96/Ive been thinking

From my point of view, I've been starting to feel as if I haven't been doing a good job on being a good person on the chat lately. A few hours ago, I posted a hidious hentai link that was intended to be a joke, but not realizing how horribly I violated the rules even though I didn't classify it as "hentai". I personally apologies on behalf of me being a complete fool.

I've also been realizing I haven't grown to be a very likable person to be around. I've been constantly griping about how I wish verses such as Star Wars and Spongebob could be stronger, I constantly talk about how I'm waiting for someone to reply to my reply....on and on. Not to mention I feel as if I've been a bit snarky, and annoying. And memey. And thats a big thing too; I feel as if I've been hooking the Jimmy Rex comment section aboard the ship, and messing everything up.

Its not just my present acts I feel stupid about. My past acts have been the constant need to RP, gripe about a cringy fight, overreact and be dramatic, and have one of the worse debates in this wiki's history. Throw in my constant complaints about bad TV shows, and other annoying things you guys had to deal with.

I've said it a bit before, but I also feel as if I'm legitamately getting lazy with lots of things. No no, not school work. But my fights, my DBX, and all those other things. I feel as if chat is making me loose focus and confidence in myself.

Another big issue, is my past beefs with people. Gmea & Rexe are the two biggest examples. Though we are chill now, I feel as if I've been really just making people aggrivated, like singing a stupid parody, or saying something really dirty. I think of it as a harmless joke, but not realize that I'm just being inconsiderate.

So I've been reconsidering going on the chat now once my ban is over. I am also feeling as if I don't have a purpose on this wiki, and I only come here for the chat. Maybe I'll go on occasions like once every two months, maybe I just won't entirely. But if I were to ask you if I should stay on chat, what would you say?

I may sound like I'm overlooking this, and that I just need to "improve" is all, but I once requested a three week chat ban to improve, but instead I came crawling back as an alt account...

So should is it really worth it to stay on chat?