User blog comment:Fedora Lord Para 348/Para gets hit with the Penance Stare/@comment-25656629-20160712233651

I'm probably gonna get carried away a few times in this comment so please bare with me on this one.

Well, first of all I'm glad that you have made this. Which I will get into in a bit, but there really hasn't been an instance where you've quote un-quote "wronged me" in any way, shape, or form. Sure you might have been irritating at times, but we all fuck up. It's just the way it is, y'know? And while I do understand why you might have thought that you did wrong me via thinking my fights as nothing more than something to surpass rather than a fight to enjoy. But, in all honesty one of the main reasons I made those fights was for a challenge in the first place.

And let's just say, you have put up exactly that. In other words, if you truly, truly think that you've wronged me at all, don't because it's not true. Nowadays it takes quite a bit of effort to do so in the first place, but back on topic. I do accept your apology and forgive you, but in general I just didn't need one. Yes, I know you said that nobody should say "But Para you haven't done anything to me! You're nice!", But I'd rather post this in public so that way other people know, just in the off-chance somebody does actually think I've been wronged by you. Because that's one thing I know you're good at besides writing, influence.

As for the blog, I'd say making it in the first place and realizing your past behavior has set a few people off is a sign of improvement in the first place. As all of this seems quite genuine, much more genuine than the previous apologies you've made at the very least. And to wrap this up because as I said above, I'm starting to get carried away like all hell, I can't really blame the entirety of your behavior on you. I mean, I can tell from what you've told me on Skype that you have gone through some difficult times. And I've gone through the same thing, if there's some terrible events going on my behavior turns into a complete mess for a little bit. So while yes, I do feel like you should switch around in a new direction and still take some responsibility. You also shouldn't be completely down-in-the-dumps and think all of this is your fault, too. If that makes any sense.

TL;DR: Just take all the time you need before you think you're ready to come back. I'll be waiting. And if you ever want to consult me on Skype in the meantime, just message me. And if you think this just seems like a nonsensical Wall-of-Text, I apologize.

Also, this is for anyone else who's reading this. In case I do slip down a path like this in the future, which I really won't say the likelyhood of either way because it can happen to anyone at anytime, just tell me outright about it. I'd probably just get worse if somebody keeps it hidden. And in the event that I'm corrupt enough to ban someone for pointing something like this out, just use that as more firepower against my case.

This may sound a bit bizarre, but just take my word for it in the event that this sort of thing happens.

Thank you.